I'm a nerd?

I'm not proudly declaring that I'm a nerd through this post. It's just that I didn't realised that I am one until recently. Seriously, who would've guessed I'm actually a nerd in disguise. As far as I know, nerds always looks the same with their never changing style but I've totally changed my hairstyle for three times this year. I love alternative rock music (nevermind the fact that I can never remember who sings what). I love sports but I'm more into watching than actually playing and recently, I have not been actively following any games for that matter. BUT still at one point I was a sport freak. I've followed every F1 match of the season, I stayed up late to watch Wimbledon and I've been to watch live football matches in England. I have been bungee jumping. Nerds are not adventurous. Yet, i guess deep down I am nerdy in someways.

Reasons that I am a nerd:

1. I get really happy when I see high download speed or when ping results are fast. Not too sure whether this is because of my job but its the same for non work related stuff. I find it exciting to handle a high end router.

2. Jargons like 'blunt force trauma' and 'asphyxiation' comes to my mind when watching horror movies. It sorts of take away the fun when watching horror movies because I'll be thinking of the clues that he have left behind and why aren't the police smart enough to figure it out. Yes, I am a CSI fan.

3. I use the internet for practically everything. To check movie times, settle my bank stuffs, find directions, or get ideas on for a practical joke. I've even use the net as my dictionary.

4. Cheap books attracts me more than shoes. So far, I have not been able to resist discounted books. Earlier there was the MPH anniversary sale and it was like Christmas and CNY all in one day. Now I've found out that Borders actually offer 20% off regularly on selected books life has never been the same.

5. I love maths. Whenever I'm stuck in a jam, I'll look at the car plates of the car around me and try to either add, subtract, multiply and divide to get 24. I like counting the probabilty of some event hapenning. Also, I'll always try to find the relation between two variables to see if there's proportional, inversely proportional or maybe exponantialy related to each other.

6. Finally, I actually listed down on why I'm a nerd. How nerdy is this?

No tuna in my tuna sandwich

The other day, a guest speaker in my church was preaching from 2 Chronicles 26. He was preaching a different message altogether but I found a passage that just stood out. It's from 2 Chronicles 26:16

"Uzziah was unfaithful to the LORD his God, and entered the temple of the LORD to burn incense on the altar of incense."

When i read that, I was quite amused by it. It is wrong to burn incense on the altar of incense? Huh? I thought it was called the altar of incense for a reason. It's like saying that it's wrong to have tuna in a tuna sandwich, it's wrong to order a big Mac in McD. You get my point right? Because it just seemed so right to burn incense on the altar of incense. Well, burning incense a form of worship. So you think God has nothing against that. God has been granting him victories over his battles so God is on his side and it is what you do at the ALTAR OF INCENSE. So, you would think God will be pleased right? But no, this was because in those days it was wrong to do so because only the priest is allowed burn incense.

I guess I really needed to be reminded of this- that no matter how right my action may seemed but if it is done with the wrong intentions, it just doesn't please God. Recently, I have doing things because I am expected to do so. It used to be because I enjoyed doing it but when because I've been given some responsibilities, I made a point to do it. The more i tell myself that I have to do it, it becomes an obiligation so much so that I forgot that I used to enjoy it in the first place. So, I really need to get my heart right again.

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

Psalms 139:23 -24

Pity me...

It's is normal for a person to be always in the victim mentality? Just recently, a collegue was telling me how he's job is always stressful because there's always issues and problems whenever he works. Yet, it weird because I do the same thing as he does and for me everything is fine with just minor hiccups. So why is both our opinions on the same thing totally different? As far as I'm concern probably one out of ten times things doesn't go our way. So, for him that's a 'why does this always happens to me' moment. There's once when I've been to this really amazing conference. The entire thing was really awesome. At the end of the conference, the bus was late and we have to wait for about two hours. Naturally, there'll be some complaints but what I got was that someone told me that this is what they'll remember of the conference. Not awesome message that was preached, not the fact that two thousand youths came together to worship, not the new people we've met but two hours that we've waited for the bus. Does a person have a choice over this pity-me mentality? Because if they do then why choose to dwell on the things that will bring you spirits down when there's so much better things to do or think about?

This reminds me of 1 Timothy 4:12
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."

It says don't let meaning no one can look down on you unless you let them. It's is your choice to let the circumstance determine your feelings. You are only a victim if you let the situation make you one. So, don't let anyone or anything make you miss out what amazing things God has planned for you because you're too busy dwelling in things which you have no control over.

Be Joyful because God says so.

Just thought that i wanted to share this because i find it really amazing. It's from 1 thessalonians 5:16- 18

Be joyful always: pray continually: give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus

Since it's all in semi colons, the last part is referring to all the sections. So it's
'Be joyful always for it is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.'
'Pray continually for it is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.'
'Give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.'

It's the first part that really amazes me. My God, the God of the universe, has it His plans for me to be joyful. This is the same God that created the universe when He said, "let there be". So when you know that it is part of God's plan, for you to be joyful, you it will happen. In fact, knowing this has just made me look a things a lot differently because I know no matter what is going on in my life now that He wants me to be joyful. Awesome right?